feeling super stressed now...
coz of sch work..coz of the questions i face everyday...
i'm asked loads of the same questions everyday..
loads of questions that i have no answer to...
i love him..i dunno y..dun ask me y...
i know that we might end up nowhere..i know...
dun have to keep chanting at my ears...
and i know i'm dumb..
maybe nobody understand y i except all his terms...
yes..u all are right...no one will except to all these...
but i chose to except..coz some day in the past...
i have already gave up my struggle..
my struggle to stop loving him..to forget everything between us...
maybe like u all say...its not worth it...
maybe i really need to get an ans from him to settle down..
maybe its also true..that someone who truly loves me won't behave this way..
maybe to everyone...he doesn't give a hoot abt me...
but..i'm tired..tired of all the struggles...
and i have no strength for all these..
to tell the truth...i accept all his terms..
just coz i fear losing him..
i might get rebuked that i lose nothing..
but to me..he means the world to me...
i dunno abt the future...
but i know thats wad it is..
for now.....
