woke up feeling really sad today..
no idea y...
went to church..band practice already felt very heavy within me...
before service even started...i sat alone infront crying...
dunno y..just felt like crying everything out...
everything that i've suppressed within me..after service..
simone lao shi talked to me..dunno y...started crying again...
so end up..cried the whole morning...
then dunno y..walk to the bus-stop to take bus home...
but reach there..suddenly haf the feeling that hui won't come my house le...
ha..then also dunno y..decided to tk bus to bukit batok find him...
that bus trip took me more than 100min to reach there lor...
turn and turn...then i never eat anything for the day too..felt like puking...
met him at abt 1500..but he told me to go home...
felt so disappointed..he dunno i'm very sad..i also din let him noe...
but i just refused to go home..ha...
he bo bian..found a place sat down with me...
think he made alot of discoveries..hahaha...
he say till like i'm so different frm wad i am in his mind lor...
think he really felt i very lousy ba..hahaha...
he also funny one...insisted i take off my jacket...
i so fat lor..but in the end also listen to him...
bought ice cream cone for him..he untie my hair when i was eating lor..haha
started styling my hair like he used to in the past...
memories just came back all at once..haha...
how he used to say my hair got very strong lavenus smell..(now is vidal sasoon) ..ha
walked him home..and he made another discovery..my collar bones...
then he kept playing with my bone..haa..so cute..
esp. his reaction when he saw my red red collar bone caused by his pinching...hahaha...
tho it was just a short period of 1 hr plus..i was really happy...
cheered me up for the whole day..guess nobody could understand how i feel...
thanks honey..for that one hr...
