ok..i admit...i am sad....
I've been staying home recently...
other than going school...i stay home...
now no school for a week...the longest distance i travel...is to tamp...n dear's house....
exp if i have to go ritz n find dear....
but if i ever haf to go anywhere further than tamp mall....
i wun step out without wearing any long sleeves or big tees....
i no longer dress up...i hate myself now...i am so fat....
i dunno where all my confidence is hiding....
but i know i have none left....
i've been eating onli one meal per day now...
but once again...i hear hurtful comments.....
dear's mom commented that i'm fat....
i'm not sad coz she say that abt me....but abt the fact that i'm so fat that even she comments....
his colleagues always say i'm bigger sized than him....
etheng used to say that me n hui are compatible...coz he feels SMALL beside me....
that is so hurting...haix...and now greg is SMALL beside me.....
frankly...i feel really sad deep down...but he doesnt understand y....
he doesnt understand alot of things i'm feeling....
then i will onli choose to hide these feelings....
wonder when will i ever be like those girls down the streets....
slim and tall...look gd in almost everything they wear....haix......
