after reading a bulletin on friendster...
weihan asked me..am i ur top priority in life?
coz it means u truly love me...if i am...
but i noe...i'm not...
u may find me not understanding at all...
u may find me too ba dao...
u may find me super unreasonable and bad tempered....
but...
have u ever put urself in my shoes?
when theres mahjong....
u no longer remember who the hell is joan....
u no longer remember you have a gf....
a gf u need to take care of...
a gf who is a girl n its unsafe for her out there in the late night...or rather...early morning....
but her safety is not ur concern...
u're more concerned abt your game of mahjong....
is my safety not worth that 2 min to sacrifice off the table??
i really start to wonder...
maybe u'll say...weihan has agreed to send me out...
yes...but do u remember whose gf i am?
this is not the first time....
i said nothing the last time...
i acted very happy although i felt quite bitter deep down....
because my bf would rather play mahjong than sent me home....
n ended up it was weijie who drove me home....
if not..u wuld have asked weihan to send me to take a cab.....
wad am i?
am i so little in your heart?
yes u wan to have fun....
but wad is that mere two min??
is it so impt it cant be paused for that slight two min??
u din gave a damn...
u said bye...
just like the others did...
but that 'bye' inflicted so much pain in my heart.....
when i reached home...that few girls i saw on the street were all holding a guy's hand.....
wheres mine? wheres this guy of mine who promise to be there for me....
to take care of me...to protect me......
and do you rem?
i'm in pain...great pain....
but i accompanied u....
without a single complaint....
do i really ask for alot?? i'm sorry if i did..
u told edwin...qy isnt worth it...
she cant even be bothered to find an excuse of why she didn't wan to go out with him....
n u? ur excuse of not buying me a single thing was the same as hers....
lazy to do so....
i felt hurt...but i didn't say so....
i'm not materialistic..i dun care what u buy.....
but e excuse given to me was also a 'i'm too lazy to do so...'
am i supposed to feel happy?
i dun even noe what to look forward to....
but i din say much...tho i complained a little....
but its nothing much....
coz all i wan is u to be happy....
but still.. i need to be pampered....
i felt like a princess during itp....
coz at least u came down to have lunch n pick me up after work for that 3 weeks.....
but now i am trying hard to grab ur attention....
coz i'm really losing it....
n...i'm starting to lose myself.......
