its so stressful n tiring...haix... but i dun wan to fail... i wan to graduate... i dun wan to repeat... haix...
my furniture was shown in e Life section of Straits Times today.... i think ever since i came in third in my batch in kindergarten.... and first in class in primary three.... this FDA competition was wad made my parents proud of me.... for so many years...its always my sis doing them proud... everytime they talk to others.... they mention my sis's good results in studies.... my sis was a gd child of theirs... fulfilled everything they wanted....
-scored 249 for PSLE -went to Anglican High(Christian SAP school) -came in second for sec one.... -got transferred to special class thereafter.... -scored 9 pts for 'O' Levels.... -got into Temasek JC -achieved straight A's for 'A' levels... -got into mechanical engin in NUS -scored high marks and sometimes perfect score for tests in sch... -received a second lower deg upon graduation -took only one yr to complete NIE education -successfully got her post in teaching immediately after graduation and principal arranged for another teacher to teach the normal students coz they wanted to groom her and sent her to teach express classes...
not to mention that she's much prettier than i am...
yup...tats my sis... and me? a pile of shit...ha
disappointed my dad with my PSLE results... scored 241...couldn't get into Anglican... went to Chung Cheng...he was mad at me for 3 yrs... sec one...chua chor loon called them up... said my behaviour was poor.... gave me a 'fairly good' conduct grade... and wrote comments that my bahaviours shld be closely monitored and supervised.... didn't do well for sec 2...got into the lousiest combi of the school.... dad was more mad than ever.... didn't do well in all my subjects n parents always have to see the form teacher.... dropped my acc in sec four.... failed my history in 'O's....
oh gosh...terrible comparison.... but today...i saw the happy looks on their face... when they saw my furniture on the paper.... they were so excited...just like the time when i showed them my renders on Home n Decor... i could tell that they were proud of me.... and that didn't happen for a decade.... they were cutting out the pic of the newspaper.... discussing whether to frame it or to laminate it....
an encouragement for such a terrible time i'm going thru.... fearing that i will fail this sem.... haix...i'm scared.....
